~I am willing to let go of my self-doubt ~ I surrender to self-love~
I feel this is an appropriate opening statement; I need this affirmation in my view so I can lose the self-doubt in writing this review on Gabrielle Bernstein’s May Cause Miracles book. ~heart~
I have been writing a lot lately, trying to get my holistic nutrition one women show business going. I feel like my posts are getting better, as I go, and my confidence in my writing ability is improving. Although when I started this particular post I stared at the screen for a long time. I haven’t actually finished the book; I started it with “everyone” January 7th so I’m 18 days in. Although I’m not even ½ way through, I have done so much work and seen subtle changes that I’m so thank-full for that I do not want to do this book an injustice in my reviewing it. It’s a life changer.
Gab’s (as I like to call her J) book could not have come at a better time. I have never been so ready for a change in my life, to work with my sub conscience and clean it up. Let my ~ing (inner guide) guide me with love and tell my ego to not let the door hit it on the ass on the way out. Plus she talks in a language I can understand and adds a swear word here and there. I’m sorry sometimes a good f-bomb just feels good, (not that Gabby uses that swear word). Although as I read this book and take this journey I realize I need to stop saying the F-bomb less and more of the F-word (forgiveness).
We need to witness our fears and forgive them; we also need to have forgiveness for others, the ones that wronged you (even the a*@hole ex's), and most importantly you. When you don’t forgive yourself for your thoughts, your actions, and your resentment towards others or even if you’re holding on to anger from the past you are only hurting yourself. I am learning to let go and to stop beating myself up and learn from my mistakes and my past. The past is a fantastic learning tool, and I’m letting forgiveness be my guide.
I believe I’m completely ready now for this journey because I am a mother, I want to face my fears (aka writing for public viewing) and I do not want to pass down my anxiety to my son. I want him to be connected to love and not to the ego where you can fall into a dark path of self-judgment. I try to teach and model for him healthy eating, clean living and how to have fun. So of course I want to teach him how to have a healthy perspective on life and himself, because growing up is hard.
I don’t recall reading a spiritual book/guide before but this book is making me realize I had a lot of tools in place already. Being a congenital heart patient has taught me a lot and I always knew I had something “greater” protecting me, like guardian angels. …stayyyy with me. Whenever the doctors would say negative things that could happen with my future health I never got it. I always felt they were talking about someone else. Like telling me I couldn’t have kids, forget that I thought, or I couldn’t do certain exercises, so I joined spin class. I always knew I was being guided and protected, however I let my emotions and fear get in my way. I have come to realize within these past 18 days I let other peoples emotions and moods greatly affect me as well, so now I am letting love be my guide baby.
I have always been a big believer in if you put it out into the universe it will come back to you, negative or positive (my hubby), with this book May Cause Miracles, it is giving me the tools and guiding me to live a life full of miracles!!
For example a couple of days ago the day’s affirmation was “I turn my perception of my body over to the care of my inner guide. Show me what you got…” For the 1st time in 16 months since my sweet boy was born I looked at myself in the mirror at the gym with all my new curves and thought I’m grateful for my body, my energy, my health and how sexy I look. ~hot mamma~
I’m sure I could write 100 pages about MCM but as I stand here in my warrior pose, breastfeeding my handsome hazel-eyed son, while sipping a smoothie, making gluten free cookies and folding laundry I think to myself isn’t this a miracle? To quote my favorite movie after Dirty Dancing, The Wizard of Oz ~ “ (Kim) you had the power all along”